Four Days Old

I can't stop staring! Seriously. I love this baby!! 

Our first night was pretty hard. All the progress we made on nursing stopped and went back two steps. Very frustrating for both of is but mostly sad because my baby is so hungry! My milk is starting to come in and my preemie is too small to latch. It breaks my heart! 

We had his first check up today (funny caz we only left the hospital yesterday) but I was really grateful because I got to talk to a pediatrician about Connor's nursing. He got weighed and has lost 12% of his body weight (5 lbs 2 oz now)! My poor baby! 

They said I need to bottle supplement his feeding until he at least gets back to his birth weight. So he is supposed to eat 1 oz each feeding. I'm pumping and then supposed to use formula to fill in what I don't produce. I can still introduce the breast so hopefully when he gets a little bigger we can nurse exclusively again but right now I just need to know he I getting what he needs. 

After we left, I was on a mission to feed my baby! I got some more bottles and formula on the way home and tried my pump for the first time. 

This was the first bottle I pumped. Very proud of this homemade meal. Since then, I've found I only pump about 1/2 to 3/4 oz right now but that's as much as he has eaten at each feeding. Hopefully he can start eating more and work up to a full ounce. 

Since then feeding has gone so much better! He is sleeping great and I'm hoping tonight will be better too. (Last night I only got about 1 1/2 hours of sleep.) It was nice to have Logan help me feed him and after Connor was so happy! 

We have to go back to the hospital tomorrow for another weight check up. Hoping he stops loosing weight and we can make some progress. 

I'm also getting a lot of the baby blues thanks to my hormones. I will be ok. I just need more sleep probably and the feeding thing has been stressing me out a bit. Good news is that my belly is shrinking, I'm healing well and my heartburn is completely gone. 

I also have the best supporter ever and love that Logan has been able to take baby leave to help me out. He helps me all day and night. He also helps me emotionally. I had a game plan for when baby came and knew not everything would go the way I wanted but he helps me to remember that that's ok. I didn't think we would have a preemie and that has brought in some extra issues but over all I have the most beautiful baby who is doing amazingly well overall for being so young.